What do I want to do with my life?

A few weeks ago at school, I was given the opportunity to have a mock interview in preparation for the world of work and consequently endless interviews. As this was a ‘mock’ I wasn’t too bothered about ensuring I was fully prepared, as I didn’t entirely know what to expect anyway. However, as I searched up practice questions in the free period I had beforehand, my nerves became prominent in my stomach, and a trickle of panic started to enter my mind as I tried to answer the one definite question of the interview: ‘What do you want to do in the future?’. To be entirely honest, I started this blog as a way to show my interest in Journalism, my most likely prospected career at the moment. Therefore, this should be the answer to the question. Simple, right? Unfortunately, as humans we have that thing known as doubt, the little voice deep at the back of your brain, constantly questioning you even when you feel confident with your decisions. I started to question myself as to whether this was really what I wanted to do. I researched deeper into life as a Journalist, finding out what the work involves, the working hours and pay. I am slightly deterred by the unsocial hours, but if this is what I really want to do, losing my social life for some of my adult life shouldn’t matter too much…

This leads me to the question of whether I am unresponsible in not figuring out what I want to do with the future, or in fact responsible for realising the obescenity of having to figure out my future so early on in my life. The young adult stage is a constantly fluctuating point of life, often filled with stress, balancing the discovery of self-identity alongside possibly life changing exams. So why are we being forced to determine our future at such an uncertain time? Of course, the other argument is if not now, then when. I understand the importance of setting a career path that you can follow, as it is evidenced that having a set goal increases motivation and success rates, however is it worth me stressing over the uncertainty of my future this early on?

Some of my friends have been set on their careers since they were five years old. There will always be the talent born singer, the determined from day one doctor and nowadays we are met with plenty of ‘social influencers’, but the truth is many of us still and won’t have for a while any idea what we want to do. We are undoubtedly reminded that it is okay to not have any idea about the future at our ‘young’ age, however that doesn’t prevent the anxiety and comparing that’s still felt if you aren’t gifted with a set career.

I, like many others, don’t really have any idea where I will be in five years time (again another typical interviewer’s question) but I know where I would like to be. I would like to have a clear idea of my career, stable finances and just be living a happy life. Yes it’s cliché, yes it’s basic and yes it is rather optimistic, but in a world of competition and conflict, the best way to ensure a future, is to look upwards, and sometimes aspire to be in places that don’t at the current moment seem possible.

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